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Blah blah blah... that is how i feel. EVERYDAY! The chemo really wiped me out this time. I have never been so sick from it. And I have been done it for 3 days now and am still getting sick from it. Will it ever end??? BUT.... Monday, May 9, 2005 was hopefully the last bag of chemo that will ever be hung for me! And my new official birthday is May 11, 2005. So Happy Birthday to me. Just wish I was in a celebrating mood. I have my FOURTH hickman, and hopefully last one. BAD BAD experiences with them. I was given one in my leg wen i first came in... BAD BAD idea. So now i have 4 beuatiful scars all over my body. but you know what they, the Goo Goo Dolls, say "scars are souveniers you never lose, the past is never far." So i guess I will NEVER be forgetting this exerience. Besides the sickness (can't really say besides cause that is all it is) hospital life isnt as bad as i had expected. My one nurse Cindy is awesome. She keeps me company and is a total WACK (yep!!) like me. So we get along great. I have a few other really good nurses that i love and even an awesome tech- Roger. I met a friend, no Jessica Holland, but a guy next to me who was in for the same thing. He is 26 and told me stories of him breaking out of the hospital to venture off to wawa and around philly, WITH HIS POLE!! haha. I got a lot of cards today. Thank you guys so much. They really do make my days better. Lacey- I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUUU! lol. And Jessica thank you for the picture, it is hanging right at the front of my room! THere is not really much else to report on. Cindy and I might do some kareoke later tonight... who knows! If i dont ruin it with my getting SICK!!! And LARI comes to visit on monday!!! So I have some stuff to look forward to. Thank you guys so much for always writing, visiting, praying, calling... it means the world to me. Remember the prayer list... Jess, Randy, Richter & Ruark families, PopPop Rossi, Mullhollands, and yours truely.